Although I spent a decade overcoming my anxiety, it never occurred to me that its root cause could be a severe childhood trauma—one my mind had forgotten, but my body had carried for fifty years. Then, out of nowhere, the right trigger struck like a bolt of lightning, breaking open the path to my repressed trauma—abuse in early childhood. In that instant, my world collapsed, along with all the roles I had played in it—except one: being a mother. The greatest joy, the one reason that made it all worth being born into this world.

Even before uncovering the abuse through therapy, I had sensed that there was something different about me, something in my personality that set me apart from others. My partner’s trigger awakened an old, buried trauma, stripping away my last thread of security—a feeling I had never truly known in my life. As I worked through just my partner’s trigger, I began to learn that trauma is not just war and rape, but also seemingly smaller and more subtle childhood experiences that shape us in profound ways. At that point, I still had no idea that I belonged to the category of severe trauma—the kind that can happen to a very young child.

Then, I embarked on a journey of feeling, exploration, and deep introspection—both within myself and through professional literature. And suddenly, one word seemed to appear everywhere around me: trauma. We hear it often, yet we rarely take it seriously. In reality, trauma controls us—operating through our unconscious, which harbours countless locked spaces filled with forgotten and unprocessed memories. As long as it can, the mind protects these secrets from the world—and from ourselves. Because once we begin opening these spaces, we step into an inevitable, painful, and lonely process—one that is often completely misunderstood by those around us.

When the dormant trigger within us awakens, it takes tremendous courage to face the true causes of our struggles. Trauma leaves lifelong imprints on a child’s and an adult’s physical and mental health, often becoming the root cause of addictions and self-destructive behaviours. Recovery from post-traumatic symptoms is a slow and painful process, one that often leads to the complete collapse of the ego and the breakdown of social connections with those who fail to understand or accept such a profound shift in an individual’s experience. In this state, the nervous system cannot be controlled by logic. Trauma responses are governed by the reptilian brain, the most primitive part of our mind. When the body feels threatened, instinct takes over, unleashing immense stored energy that desperately seeks relief but finds no outlet. Many unexplained symptoms people suffer from today stem from unresolved and undiscovered traumatic experiences—buried deep, swept under the rug, and left in silence.

If we truly want to embark on the journey of healing trauma, we must first uncover the truth of what happened to us. Many of these truths are hidden deep within our unconscious mind and our body, where they are the hardest to reach and release. Next, we must face the complete collapse of the life we once knew and accept ourselves in an entirely new light—as if we had suddenly landed in an unknown land that those around us neither see nor understand. We must endure the overwhelming mix of emotions and sensations that arise—ones we were never truly prepared for. There is no theoretical book or academic education that can prepare you for such a turbulent and transformative process. And as we uncover our own darkness, we begin to see it in others as well. Suddenly, we gain deep insights into individuals, families, and society. We start to understand why people react the way they do, why we so often project perfect, fabricated images of idyllic lives in public while hiding the real turning points and generational wounds—from ourselves and from others—out of fear that someone might truly see us for who we are.

I never chose this path. But now, I share my story with the world—without shame, without hesitation—because I have come to understand just how many people, in fact, nearly all of us, carry within us an unexplored subconscious, old behavioural patterns, and deep-seated beliefs shaped by past traumatic experiences—not to mention the inherited traumas passed down through generations. There is a great lack of awareness surrounding these hidden wounds and the healing process, both in society and among professionals. Many individuals struggle daily with symptoms of anxiety, depression, post-traumatic nervous system responses, fibromyalgia, addiction, physical illnesses, and suffering in relationships, yet the root cause—trauma—often remains unrecognised. The world tells us to "push through," "get over it quickly," and "just endure life"—but these are harmful and completely misguided pieces of advice from those who do not understand how deep, slow, and intense the trauma healing process truly is. The frozen fragments of trauma within our nervous system are like ticking time bombs, triggering unexplained explosions when least expected. That is why healing must be approached gently, carefully, step by step—so that we can survive the process. Healing trauma is a lifelong journey—one that demands immense patience, self-work, and deep commitment. Only by going through it can we finally learn to accept ourselves as we truly are, in our authenticity—without masks, without games, without the illusions that dominate the modern, false world. As we heal, immature relationships fall away, inauthentic people disappear, and all that remains is the essence—the truth—which is often hidden from the eye, but never from the soul.

And inevitably, you shift into a higher spiritual understanding—of people, of humanity, of empathy, of truth, and of society as a deeply traumatised species that, time and time again, chooses violence, war, abuse, hatred, and suffering over healing. Thus, generation after generation, new traumatised souls are born, unable to mend their wounds or step into love, forgiveness, and gratitude—unable to raise their vibration and break the cycle of repeating the same painful choices that lead to unparalleled suffering. Never in history have there been so many wars, refugees, addicts, and lost, desperate individuals and societies as there are today. In the 21st century, as humanity ventures into space, it still fails—or worse, refuses—to create the most basic conditions for a normal, healthy, and loving life on Earth—the very life that every single one of us longs for.

This is why healing trauma is so crucial—for each of us individually, within our families, ancestral lines, and society. Trauma healing brings with it wisdom, truth, empathy, and a broader perspective—not only of ourselves but of the world around us. There is still so much work ahead, but also so many opportunities to break free from old destructive patterns—to create a better future for the generations to come. They deserve a new Earth—one with more empathy and understanding, less suffering, and a world where values and morals no longer collapse under the weight of a broken civilisation.